Do I Really Have to Have It All Figured Out?
... Not really
Isn’t it strange how, from such an early age, we’re expected to have our entire life figured out? A question that perhaps haunts every teenager, at least for a while. Like many others my age, I was confronted with that great, looming uncertainty: What do I want to do with my life?
It’s both amazing and petrifying that we now live in a world overpopulated with career options ranging from data analytics to designing escape room to managing Instagram dogs with millions of followers. There’s a job (and a salary) for everything. Unfortunately, more choices don’t always make things clearer. In fact, they often make rather messier.
I spent a good chunk of my teenage years bouncing between dreams. At one point, I wanted to be a heart surgeon. Then a professional squash player. For a while, I was convinced I’d become a famous podcaster. Each dream felt real at the time — until it didn’t.
And then, slowly, something else began to take shape. I realised that the world isn’t only shaped by people who pick one path and walk it with unwavering focus. It’s also shaped — deeply — by those who move through multiple spaces, build different things, take risks, and leave behind pieces of themselves in places they were never expected to be.
After a lot of trial and internal back-and-forth, I finally found the path I see myself walking: business.
Not because I want to chase money or prestige — but because I want to create. I want to build something from scratch, take bold decisions, carry risk, and watch ideas turn into something real. This decision didn’t come to me in one dramatic moment. It came slowly, over time — and honestly, that’s what makes it feel real.
I’ve come to understand that figuring out what you want to do isn’t a straight line. It’s chaotic. It’s confusing. And more often than not, it only makes sense in hindsight. What once felt like failed detours often turn out to be the most defining chapters of your story.
Some people know from the age of six that they want to be an astronaut. Others, like me, take a little longer — and that’s probably alright.
As strange as it may sound, I carry a quote in my heart:
“Dream so big, even the world seems small in comparison.”
It may sound dramatic, but it’s what fuels me.
So no — I don’t have everything figured out.
But I’ve found my compass.
And maybe, that’s all any of us really need.



I deeply resonated with your post. Just yesterday I talked to a lifelong friend and she asked, "Blue, how do you know what your purpose is?" I explained, that I could only answer that in hindsight. I'd travelled so many different paths, had scores of passions, embraced change, took risks, trusted in synchronicity and now, at 81, am still wondering what my "purpose" is!!
I love this so much! I’m not sure we ever have it all figured out and I sure wish people would stop thinking we should have it all figured out. This is wonderful ❤️